Happy Belated Christmas to you all, and an early Happy New Year!
I’ve had a couple of days off work, and aside from spending time with my loved ones, I’ve also spent a lot of time watching back to back Dexter on Netflix (yes, I’m late to the show on this one but now I’m officially hooked.)
I just wanted to talk (type?) a little about 2015. I’m not usually one for New Year’s Resolutions, I’m usually of the mind set that a new year really doesn’t change much. This year it’s a little different, I’m facing a lot of changes and with this brings a new eagerness for life. I’ll be starting a new job in January, which I’m both nervous and excited about. I currently work with the best group of people, and it’ll be sad that we’re all parting ways but I feel like I really have made friends for life. I’ll be closing the chapter on a few things and I’ll be approaching what I like to think of as a new lease of life.
I have a few practical goals for 2015; find my own home, be successful in my new job, release a new book, perhaps get back to learning to drive. More so than these, I feel the importance to strip back to basics of what’s important to me.
Over the past year or so I’ve been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks, and so have people who are very close to me. This is a sentiment that I’d like them to apply to themselves, and for you to do so as well.
Life can be so fast-paced, days blur into one and it’s easy to fall into habits. It’s easy to get weighed down by daily stresses and stresses that you create in your own head (guilty!) There’s a lot to be said about simply taking time out of your day to be kind to yourself, and this is my main goal for 2015. For me, being kind to myself can simply mean allowing myself to sit down with a book, quiet music in the background and a relaxing candle. I’ve been doing more of this over the past month or so, and it really helps with my anxiety. A lot of people feel as though they don’t deserve to take this time for themselves, simply don’t need to, or the idea of which just isn’t on their radar. I’ve found myself preaching the importance of this to a close friend of mine, and we’ve spent nights going through guided meditation techniques in order to take a step back from our stress and anxiety.
I’m not saying we should all go join a meditation group, but it’s so important to do what makes you feel good, something positive for yourself. Treat yourself in a way you would treat a loved one. It’s a small step to self-acceptance.
With this in mind, I also want to take the time to re-discover the things I was once passionate about, things that I’ve allowed my troubles to interfere with; be it education, creativity and anything else in between.
I don’t know if this really makes an awful lot of sense, but I feel like I lost myself for a while and I want to start the journey towards finding myself again. If any of you have found yourself feeling the same way in recent times, I implore you to do the same. Kindness towards yourself really will go a long way.